Happy New Year!!

This is my last post for this year I guess, it feels weird that the year is over, looking back I'm amazed of how time flies and how we go through life just like that, in an hour I am going to my friends to celebrate the new year, this makes me but wonder, we are all scared of the unknown, but now we're celebrating it and hope for the best, but then tomorrow we forget and start to worry again, so I think let's just enjoy what we have today and forget about tomorrow for now.
I think that we should for today at least Laugh our heart out, dance in the rain, cherish the moment, ignore the pain. The rest we will keep it for the New Year, that will keep us busy until we hit 2010.

A Time to believe

To believe is to know that everyday is a new beginning; it is to trust that miracles do happen and dreams really do come true.
To believe is to see angles dancing among the clouds, to know the wonder of a star dust sky and the wisdom of the man in the moon.
To believe is to know the value of a nurturing heart, the innocence of a child’s eyes and the beauty of an aging hand, for it through their teaching we learn to love.
To believe is to know that we are not alone, that life is a gift and that this is our time to cherish it.
To believe is to know that wonderful surprises are just waiting to happen and that all of our hopes and dreams are within reach.

It we only believe.

The Miracle of Friendship

There is a miracle called friendship that dwells within the heart, you don’t know how it happens or when it gets, it just starts.
The happiness it brings you, will always give you a special lift and you realize that friendship is god’s special gift.
From day to day, nothing surely defines the quality of our lives, as the unwavering affirmation in the eyes, in the voices, in the presence of our friends, it is through them we truly begin to know ourselves, and it is their affection that assure our dignity and worth.

Who Rules???

You know sometimes when you feel that you have a lot inside that needed to be said, yet you can never find the perfect words that could help you express what you want to say, well! this is exactly how I feel right now, I feel that I have so many things to say but then when I try to say it I can't, I wonder why??? this makes me wonder, do we have some sort of a Langue that is tucked deep inside us and only our heart understands it? could that be?? I wonder!!!, I wish I could understand my heart more, sometimes I feel that it is a battle between the two of us, I know it's part of me, but my heart says something but then my mind disapproves, what can I do, to make them both happy, when I listen to my heart, I end up hurting myself, and when I listen to my mind same thing happens, who rules?? the heart, or the mind, or both? I wish I could figure that out, that would make my life easier. Amazing, amazing, amazing how even us, can't understand ourselves and we expect others to understand us.

We need to feel more

We need to feel more to understand better,

We need to love to be loved back,

We need to cry more to cleanse ourselves,

We need to laugh more to enjoy ourselves,

We need to establish the value of honesty and fairness, when interacting with people.

We need to establish a strong ethical basses as a way of life.

We need to see more than our own little fantasizes.

We need to give more and take less

we need to share more and own less

We need to realize the importance of family as a back 

bone to stability

we need to look more and realize that we are not so different from one another

We need to create a world where we can peacefully live the life we choose

We need to create a world where once again trust each other.

When I follow my own star

I watch the world through curious eyes,

and wonder up at star filled skies,

and dream about, the wondrous things

tomorrow promises to bring.

I keep my secret hopes and dreams

tucked far away on bright moonbeams,

and out beyond horizon far

I wish upon a shooting star,

I journey to new worlds unmet

with treasurers undiscovered yet--

my dreams take me where rainbows are

when I follow my own star!

Missing mama

For some reason i cannot sleep tonight, I hate when this happens, it makes me think about so many things that i don't want to think about, like how fast my mom passed away, it's been 3 years now, but sometimes it feels like it just happened yesterday, I was having dinner with some of my friends tonight and some how we were talking about my mom, how great she was, and about the way she cooked, she use to be a great cook and most importantly she use to be my best friend, we use to talk for hours non-stop about anything and everything, some how today i felt that i needed that and deep inside my heart it hurts like hell, sometimes i wonder, why do we have to die? if god loves us ! why does he take away the people that we love and make us suffer? Missing my mom is something i got use too but sometimes it hurts so much that i feel like screaming thinking that this might help, but of-course i cannot do that, cause if i did people will think that I'm crazy, even though i do some crazy stuff sometimes. I would like to believe it when they say that when people die they actually watch us from a distance and they know when we are happy or sad, but if they are watching over us why can't we see them? and talk to them? I know this could be funny for some people but sometimes i feel that mom is sitting with me just like we use to, I really feel her presence, this could be an illusion to help me feel better but my excuse is that this is the only way I know that she was once upon a time.

Visiting a book store

I went shopping today with a friend of mine, I love shopping it always seems to make me feel great, one of my favorite things to do when going shopping, is visiting chapters, it has 2 things that I love, books and starbucks, when I get there, I usually go get my favorite latte (Cinnamon Dolce Latte) then hed to the book store. While looking for books, today I saw a quote that I loved, it said “Shoot for the moon even if you miss it, you will land among the stars”, so many things in my life is happening these days, which are not very good, but reading this quote made me think and realize that I have to always be positive and move forward cause you never know what might happen, things that are bad might turn up to be good and visa versa, I was scared but then I realized why should I be, there is always a reason for what ever is happening in our lives, but the smart thing to do is to learn from our mistakes, it is unfortunate that we have to go through the falling down in order to learn to walk, It helps us to realize that we can survive and go on with our lives, amazing, how a simple quote made me think and actually made me feel better, I think it is a sign from god that I have to be stronger and always have faith in tomorrow and mostly in me.

What is Tomorrow?

Today is all I have, I mean what is the use for me to look back and regret every thing that I have done wrong, yea, I know that I have made so many mistakes, but hey! These mistakes made me who I am today. Tomorrow! What is tomorrow? it is the unknown, no one really knows what tomorrow may bring it could be good or bad whatever we have now is the best that we can get so let tomorrow be tomorrow let’s just live the moment and be happy no matter what, I hate the unknown it’s scary and because of this I have realized that the past and the future are real illusions, and that they exist in the present, which is what there is and all there is, so live for today because yesterdays are over and tomorrow may never come.

My sister once told me something that I will always remeber she said to me " Always smile because life is a camera" I try my best to take her advise, one more thing, Laugh you heart out, dance in the rain, cherish the moment, ignore the pain, Live, laugh, love forgive and forget life is too short to be living with regrets.

sometimes we make mistakes and wrong decisions that we may regret but come to think about it mistakes are what makes our fate... without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies, or be who we are. After all, things change, so do cities, people come into your life and they go. But it's comforting to know that the ones we love are always in our hearts, besides I am a firm believer that everything happens for a reason, so the best thing to do is live life to the fullest and learn as you go along....
Live, Laugh and Love, and appreciate every second that you have cause once you loose it, it's gone for ever...