Driving.....

It is raining out and I am sitting in my bedroom listening to my favorite tunes, and thinking to myself, why is it impossible to get everything we want, I want something but I know it is not going to happen ever, and the more I think about it the more I think that I need it, I know that whatever I am saying now makes no sense but I cannot just say what I really want to say "what’s the use since it will never happen anyways", it’s just a thought and I felt like letting it out…
Yesterday, was a lot of fun, in the morning I met some friends that I use to work with at my previous job, it was really nice seeing them again, they told me everything about the office gossip it was nice listening to them and wow so many things have changed over there, we talked for 3 hours none stop about everything and anything while enjoying our Starbucks coffee and decided that sometime within the next week to meet for dinner. After meeting with my friends I went to the spa, it was so relaxing I really had fun and by the end of the day I was supper relaxed and ready for the evening that was ahead of me.
My friend and I are both upset with the our special someones and we wanted to take a break from them so we decided to go crazy for the night, we went down town, wearing high heels and looking good, we went to a restaurant called mama grazzi, they had really good food, what was funny about last night and while we were having our drinks, a very cute guy approached us and asked if we were interested to have a drink with him and his friend, my immediate reaction was no, I don’t know why I said no, I kinda regretted it later, cause the guy was very good looking, ooo well! What can I do, I cannot change anything now and of course my friend hates me for it but I know that we will be able to move on "looool". I should say that the food was so yummy we enjoyed every bite. After dinner we wanted to walk in the market but we couldn’t cause it rained on us, so we decided to take a long ride, we took the 417 and just drove for 2 hours it was amazing, I don’t know why, sometimes I just love to drive to no-where, just spontaneously, the thought of not having a specific destination that we want to get to is amazing, it’s just you and the car and the roads, I usually take these rides whenever I am upset or supper happy, I don’t know why I like to do it, to some people this could be crazy but I love it and I think that I will always do it, anyhow, by the time we were back home it was after mid night I felt that the night was still young, so I kinda took a small walk in the rain and in the dark, it was nice but cause I was wearing my high heels I couldn’t walk for long. I wish I could do that every day, but I know it is impossible. I think that life has a way of telling us that we are only aloud to be crazy for one night at a time only, I think that this  is what makes life interesting and makes us want to live in this hectic life of ours........

A phone call…..

A friend of mine called me from Paris this evening, it was really nice talking to her, it’s been a long time since we spoke, and every time we talk it brings back a lot of memories, it took me back maybe 15 years, wow how fast time flies, it’s scary.... We talked about the past and how much fun it use to be and how free of responsibilities we were, all we cared about is how we looked and what to wear before going to school the next day… how we change as time passes by is so amazing we think that we are not changing but when we look back and see how different we were, we realize that yes we did change and yes everything about anything in our lives is different now. She told me that she is heartbroken and that she misses her boyfriend a lot it is unfortunate that she cannot be with him now, I feel for her and I wanted to ease her pain as much as I can but I couldn’t, she said that love hurts and that’s true in certain ways but I think that, that’s not true as well, cause I think that loneliness hurts, rejection hurts, loosing someone hurts. Everyone confuses things with love but in reality love is the only thing in this world that covers up all the pain and makes you feel wonderful again….. I said to her that soon they will be both together and whatever caused their separation now it will soon be over and they will be back together, I actually promised her that this would happen, I know her boyfriend, he is a close friend of mine, I actually introduced them, and I know just how much he loves her. I just hope that he will return soon.
The good news is that she told me that she will be visiting me soon, well! Not that soon, she said that she will come in December to spend the holidays with us, she is like family, I told my dad and he was very happy that she is coming. Sometimes friends are connected to us more than anyone in this world and I am glad that she was and is and will always be part of my life.