Missing Mom and Dad

Something that I read this morning that says it all.....

"The Moment that you died, my heart was torn into two, one side into heartache, the other died with you. I often lie awake at night, when the world is fast asleep, and take a walk down memory lane, with tears upon my cheeks. Remembering you is easy, I do it every day, but missing you is a heartache that never goes away. I hold tightly within my heart and there you will remain. Until the joyous day arrives, that we will meet again."

I miss you mom and Dad

Life equals love.

I know it’s been a while since I last posted something on my blog. I have no idea where the time has gone, it’s already September, that means in 3 months this year will be over. Wooow indeed!!, I had no idea that time can go so fast, like I do right now. So many things has happened to me in the last few months. Lots of ups and downs but most importantly, I met someone, someone so special, someone that makes me happy every time I am with him. I learned to love again, when I thought that I will never find true love. Indeed I am lucky because I have another chance with someone that I love so much. Right now I am so happy; I pray to god that everyone in this world is as happy as I am. My love story is a little complicated and there will be lots of challenges for sure, but then I am ready to fight for it, cause I know it’s worth it and its worth every tear drop that I could shad for it.

Love is something that I wish for everyone, because it makes you feel alive and complete. So love, love for love and enjoy it, even if it hurts. Pain means life; life is love, so therefore life equals love.

Are you happy?!

Few weeks ago a friend of mine and I were chilling, and all of the sudden my friend asked me if I was happy, I had to think about it actually, I never realized that it could be a hard question to answer, for few moments, I was asking myself over and over again if I was really happy, and then I though to myself that I owe my friend an answer so I said to her “ I guess so” I know it wasn’t convincing but I couldn’t really say more than that, and then I asked her the same question, she gave me the same answer. It made me think about it, and I kept asking myself what is the real meaning of happiness, the more I thought about it the more I realized that happiness really doesn’t exists, happiness is actually a state of mind. What I mean is that when we buy something that we really want, we become so happy to have that something but then again as time passes by the thing that made us happy doesn’t matter anymore, because its there. Even when people win the lottery they think that they will be happy, yes they will, but as time passes and as their responsibilities becomes more and more this happiness fades away.

As a child I use to love Lady Diana, in fact she was my ideal. She was just perfect, but for some reason she wasn’t happy, she had it all, beauty, money, and power, she was the people’s princess but never happy, she made other people happy but not herself. I have so many examples that happiness is not something that we can find, its something that we feel when something new and exciting happens but its for a short period of time. The big thing about happiness is that even though it’s not true it keeps us going and hoping that we will find it some day. To be happy we have to always look for a new challenge because that’s what is going to make us alive and I guess happy.

Remember happiness is a way of travel not a destination....

Katy Perry - Firework

Here is a song that I find so inspiring and perfect for this time of the year. Since 2010 is coming to an end I thought that it would be nice to post this song in my blog....

Ur Life!

I am on vacation, not planning to go anywhere this time, even though it’s been a while since I traveled last. My heart aches cause it misses the excitement of going somewhere to experience something new and meeting new people...but anyhow I will survive. Here is something that I thought about and thought that it would be nice to share. It’s about life and the way we should live it....


This is your life, do what you love, and do it often. If you do not like something, change it, if you do not like your job quit. If you do not have enough time, stop watching TV. If you are looking for the love of your life, STOP, they will be waiting for you when you start doing things you love. Stop over analyzing, all emotions are beautiful. Open your mind, arms and heart to new things and people. We are united in our experiences. Ask the next person you see what their passion is, and share your inspiring dream with them. Travel often, getting lost will help you find yourself. Some opportunities will only come once. Seize them. Life is about the people you meet and the things you create with them. So go out and start creating. Life is short, live your dream and wear your passion!.

A Childhood Friend...

Ok!, here is something that I have never expected, few weeks ago my brother had an interview at a company called Deloitte, it went very well, he actually got the job, he’s their new senior director. Wow! it’s nice to have a brother in that position I feel so powerful ;) anyways, that’s not why I am writing this post. When my brother went for his first interview the admin person that was there was one of my childhood friends that I have lost contact with ever since I left Lebanon, she recognized my brother and asked him about me, he told her that I was doing good and gave her my contact info. OMG when I saw that email from her and when my brother told me that he found my lost friend I was so happy, I tried to look her up on Facebook before but I never found her. It turned up to be that she is not a Facebook fan which is weird cause she is a very social person. While reading her email this morning I remembered so many things that was buried in my mind and heart and thought that I forgot all about it until this very moment. It felt so good it made me smile. I remembered her beautiful smile and her amazingly beautiful red hair, ooo how much I miss her, I can’t wait to see her again after all these years and tell her all about my history. But then I thought about it, and realized that I will be talking for a long time. Knowing me I won’t be able to express myself very well so I have decided to hear everything about her instead cause she told me that she also has a lot to say, well of course that’s only normal cause the last time we saw each other was like 16 years ago. I know that so many things have happened to us and that sometimes when we meet our old friends again after a long time it will not be the same cause we all change but with this particular friend it’s different, she was always in my mind. When we were younger, we use to do so many crazy things and share even crazier ideas together. Can’t wait to relive it all again with her. I have no idea what am going to do when I see her, but I am pretty sure its ganna be an amazing reunion. I use to always wonder why everyone says that the world is such a small place. Now I know why, and I believe that when we stop looking for what we want, it will come right to us and when we least expect it.

Happiness!

When I was 5 years old my mom always told me that happiness was the key to life, when I went to school they asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I wrote down “happy” they told me that I did not understand the assignment and I told them that they didn’t understand life…. (Indeed they didn’t)...