Corona-virus...

Corona-virus, something that hit us suddenly. It feels like as if we are all in a horror movie. Everyone is scared. which is understandable. But what  I do not understand is why people are over reacting, by hoarding things that they don't really need. The most thing that amazes me is that, there is no toilet paper in the market anymore. I mean, why????? I am concerned about this virus for sure but not panicking. I have faith that this will end soon. We do what we have to do as a community and leave the rest to the professionals. I have been home since Friday after I came back from work, I never been home for such a long period of time. To keep my family safe I will I do it. My 5 year old son who has asthma, he's at a higher risk that if he gets this virus he will be hospitalized. I would do anything to keep him and his sisters safe and healthy. But no panicking and trying to buy things that we really don't need will not solve the problem. Just do the best you can to keep your community safe. I am a firm believer that no matter how difficult the situation is, there is always a solution. Like we learned in Physics, for every action there an equal and opposite reaction. So Corona-Virus hit us hard we will hit hard back by doing what's wright for us and our community and country. Stay home, stay safe...

Just for the sake of it…

Its only Tuesday,  it feels like a long week already... busy at work, busy at home.  My husband has been gone since Sunday. So am alone with 3 little ones, what made things worse is that I sprained my ankle on Sunday. So walking has been a challenge. Anyways, I am so looking forward to Friday. I really have nothing to say here and I know this could be the worse post I have ever made but I feel like I need to post something for the heck of it. My brain is totally toasted, so I cant think of anything to make this post any better. Sometimes things that don't make sense some how end up making sense. 

Life is life.....

so it's Wednesday night and its cold, typical January night.I am thinking back 10 years ago and how things have changed since then. How priorities have changed. 10 years ago I use to think I knew it all. I don't think that I did. I don't think anyone know it all. Life is a constant change and every day you learn something new. By meeting new people, having a new job and or becoming a parent. This in itself will transform your life inside out. whatever you learned is all gone once you hold that tiny little  precious baby in your arms. Its the most beautiful feeling but the scariest feeling ever. So yes, life is something we will never ever figure out. We think we finally did but then something happens that will completely change everything we thought we knew and we have no idea, what had happened or how it happened. So I guess life is life. Live it, enjoy it, love it and hate it. life is like a combination of spices, some of them are very spicy and some are mild and sweet. So whatever life has for you enjoy it. weather its spicy or not. Always remember we only live once, so take advantage of that and enjoy the spicyness....

What music is all about?!!!!

The weather is bad today. It’s been raining all day and soon it will turn into freezing rain and possibly snow. So, what’s the best thing to do in a weather like this?! Stay at home and have hot cocoa by the fireplace and listen to music, while updating your blog. That’s exactly what am doing now. I love music. I listen to music all the time. I listen to music when I am sad, upset, stressed and happy. Remember the first time you went to a show and saw your favourite band. You wore their shirt, and sang every word. You didn’t know anything about scene politics, haircuts, or what was cool. All you knew was that this music made you feel different from anyone you shared anything with. Someone finally understood you. This is what music is about. Music is an important part of our life as its a way of expressing our feelings as well as emotions. Music is the best way to escape from pain of life. It plays a more important part in our life than just being a role of entertainment.... So enjoy music!!!! 

They don’t teach us…

It’s Tuesday evening, am listening to my favourite tunes, kids are asleep and hubby is away on a business trip. So basically I have the evening all to myself . Since I have nothing that I need to do,  I decided why not update my blog. So here I am. But the thing is I am really not sure what to say. So I will keep it short. I have been thinking lately and I have been making a list of things that they don’t teach us at school, especially after my dad passed away last year. They don’t teach us how to love somebody. They don’t teach us how to be famous or rich or poor. They don’t teach us how to walk away from someone you don’t love anymore or how to know what’s going on in someone else’s mind. They don’t teach us what to say to someone who’s dying especially if that someone is your parent. They don’t teach us anything worth knowing. Somehow, they expect us to know it all. I guess the best teacher is life.

Guilt that kills......

It's Friday, it's mid August. the summer is going by so fast and I feel like I need to do more but I am not motivated. I feel like I wasted my summer. Maybe because I am working full time and I have 3 little ones at home. Life is hectic and I am scared that one day I will look back and regret this wasted summer. I try to do my best on the weekends but there is lots of earns that needs to be done for the week. I feel bad that the kids are not having as much fun as they should. Even though they are in a camp that has all the activities that they love but as a family we didn't do much. My husband travels a lot more now so this also makes it even harder for me to get everything done and entertain the kids to make their summer memorable. Sometimes when I think of things to do with the kids, I change my mind because I am to tired to do anything. Is that normal? every weekend I have all the intentions that I am going to do so much with the kids but life kicks in and makes it impossible and if I have some time I am just to tired to do anything. The guilt is killing me. Sometimes I feel bad that I went back to work after my twins started school. Because when I was home with them I was always there for them, we use to play more, spend more time with each other but not anymore. Is it normal to feel this bad? every time I read a quote that says "enjoy every minuet with your kids because you will never get this moment back" It kills me!! Life goes by so fast. At the same time I want to do something for me as well. from the moment I had my first till the moment my youngest started school, I dedicated my life for them. I wanted to be there for all their firsts and I was. I think it's time to have some me time but why do I feel so guilty about it?....

Missing Mom and Dad

Something that I read this morning that says it all.....

"The Moment that you died, my heart was torn into two, one side into heartache, the other died with you. I often lie awake at night, when the world is fast asleep, and take a walk down memory lane, with tears upon my cheeks. Remembering you is easy, I do it every day, but missing you is a heartache that never goes away. I hold tightly within my heart and there you will remain. Until the joyous day arrives, that we will meet again."

I miss you mom and Dad